Apocalypse: My Sweetie Is Tough but Cute

Chapter 23: Chapter 023: What You Want, I Can No Longer Give

Later, when life became so difficult that he was too overwhelmed to care for her, she finally realized that her existence was just like the dolls Xiao’ai placed on the bedside.

When she liked them, she would pick them up for a hug, but when no longer needed, they could be put back again.

Sometimes, she envied the Little Dinosaur that Xiao’ai held in her arms every day. At least Xiao’ai, who didn’t speak, always wanted to carry it with her.

As for Su Shu, in her past life, in order to keep Shen Han, she broke her own bottom line and became his underground mistress that he couldn’t be seen with.

Those three months were the most painful time of her life. She would ask herself every day what she was living for. When you love someone, sometimes you don’t think straight. She had loved Shen Han for so many, many years. After her parents passed away, her world only had room for Shen Han. Whatever he wanted, she was willing to give.

He said, “Su Shu, do you want to be my girlfriend?” And she, brimming with joy, thought she had gained the whole world.

He said, “Su Shu, I want to go abroad to further my studies,” and she, nodding with tears in her eyes, sent him off, not wanting to hinder his education. @@novelbin@@

He said, “Su Shu, I miss you,” and she would count the time difference every day, drinking coffee and fighting sleepiness to talk to him.

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As long as he said it, she had it, she was willing.

But in the end, what he wanted was a family with a distinguished background that could help him soar in his career—a matrimonial family that Su Shu truly did not have.

Su Shu’s entire family consisted only of herself.

All she owned was the few million she had scrimped and saved, but what was that to him? it wasn’t even worth one of his cars.

It was really at that moment, for the first time, Su Shu grew up. She understood for the first time what it meant to be well-matched in social and economic status.

When Shen Han’s mother scorned her in the past, saying she wasn’t suitable for the Shen Family, Shen Han would reply, “What I like is what’s suitable.”

She, the fool, believed it—all of it. To her, Shen Han was her sky. Whatever the sky said, she took as truth.

But in the end, she saw clearly that indeed what Shen Han liked was what was suitable, because he liked what was suitable for him.

Jiang Meili’s family background was suitable for him, so he was able to make himself like it.

In fact, any bystander could see these things clearly and plainly, but she was so deeply immersed that she couldn’t see anything clearly, leading to her being abandoned in the wasteland to fend for herself.

Memories, laced with hurtful stabs, weren’t something Su Shu wanted to think about. When she was abandoned by the Shen family, why didn’t he appear? Was it because he was afraid to face the guilt in his heart, or was it because in the end, he didn’t want to see her at all?

The heart of a maiden in love is always tender. The affections of those days dried up bit by bit in the barren nights of the wasteland.

Su Shu thought that day was her last in this world. Thinking of her parents in heaven, she wasn’t scared; it just felt as if her heart had been hollowed out. Emptiness filled with cold air, and her body shivered from cold.

When she lost consciousness, she thought death might be a relief, for a dead heart no longer hurts.

She had given up hope then, yet it was precisely in a muddled daze that she heard a deep voice near her ears, which sounded really pleasant in retrospect.

“Here, give her some water to drink, then put her on my back.”

Remembering the past, Su Shu became distracted unconsciously. Shen Han had noticed long ago, but he didn’t interrupt. He was extremely surprised as he had never seen such a world-weary expression in Su Shu’s eyes, nor had he ever seen such a relaxed and satisfied look in them.

He didn’t know what she was reminiscing about, yet had a strange and somewhat uncomfortable intuition.

The memories that made Su Shu feel relaxed and content, it seems… were not because of him.