Even though, I'm Not the One.

Five years had passed since I remembered my past lived, I still can't fathom why did I die... I never offended anyone based on my opinion and is seeing my brother-in-law that day is also related to my death... Well not that I can see them again in this world but I hope my stupid sister is doing well since I can never check on her anymore... In this world my name became my Surname while my last name on my past life became my given name, what a weird coincidence.

"Lucien -sama, breakfast is already prepared, the Baron and the rest are already there." Respectfully stated by my aide aka butler making nod and headed straight towards the dining area where my new family are already sitting to there perspective position.

"Lu-chan,  how's your sleep?" Questioned by my supposedly mother in this world.

"It's fine, mother,thanks for asking." I replied as i sit next to my older brother whose always cold to me not that I care since adding my age and my past age he's just a kid to me. 

Aside from me and my brother we also have other siblings making us five in total, I'm  normally treated well since aside from big brother my other siblings are close to me so as him but whenever it comes to me his like a iceberg not that I mind since I consider myself as an adult mentally thanks to my memory.

"Do you plan to go visit the library again?" Curiously asked by the third sister whose a year younger than me.

"Hmm, you can't join me today since you have a dance practice layer right." I replied, this lil kid usually love to tag along whatever I want to do.

"Oh... Right..." She stated sadly she really wants to follow me around.

"Your coming out of age is next month,what do you plan to do?" The Baron no my father asked me out of curiosity since he really won't mind what I do as long as I stay out of trouble.

"Traveling... I guess... I want to see the world not only from the books I had read." I replied honestly since that's what I really want.

"You want to be an adventurer?" Amazingly asked by my fourth sibling, this little fella seems to admire those adventurer from the adventure guild.

"Not quite exactly but somehow the same..." I replied making his cute face frown a little.

"You see, those people from the adventure's guild can fight or something to complete some quest they have, as for me I'm no good at wielding sword or even have any mana to became a mage so its clearly impossible for me, just visiting from place to place." I explained making him nod even the youngest it seems that she also understand what a clever kid.

"Can I go too?" Excitedly asked by the third child which makes me and the rest shakes head as a disapproval making her pout but no one paid attention and continued our breakfast. 

"After this, visit me to my office before heading at the library." My father stated while looking at me making me nod.

....

"Father, this is Lucien." I declare as I knocked to his office door.

"Come inside." He replied as I went inside the office, seeing my mother and big brother there except for my father makes me somehow curious... I wonder what is this about... He rarely called for me  so seeing mother and big brother is here is quite suspicious. 

"Sit down." He stated making me obey silently since I also didn't plan to stand anyway.

"Have you wonder why I did not mendle too much with your choices? " Father asked seriously making me somehow quiet and nod slightly since before I get my memory from my past life, I used to asked myself about that since most of the family in our territory did not have the same family management as my family now. 

"Its because your never my son to begin with..." He added make me stunned for a second and look at my mother confusedly who has a small yet melancholic smile... Did mom cheated? 

"Stop what your thinking right now, Lucien it's not what you think... Your mother is also not your mom. " He added making me more confused and also shocked at the same time so who is my parents then. 

"Your Mom no not really your mom, Cynthia and I was your grandparents... That's the truth..." Father no... Grandpa added making my head hurts a little. 

"Whose my fater then?" I asked seriously as I looked straight towards my big brother whose been quiet all this time...

"Your really smart, your right ... Cien is your real father not your big brother...  He was ten back then when a mad witch kidnapped him and had you.. " Grandpa replied making me shut my eyes tightly... 

"I think I get it and at the same time not understand all of this gave me time to process everything first... But don't worry I'm not angry or anything to any of you but please excuse me first." I stated and leave the room and lock myself up.

Wow this new family of mine is indeed strange... No wonder big brother.. er dad never treat me as his siblings since technically I'm his son from his black history and see me live a carefree life makes him loathe me I guess... This is kinda suck.... Should I disappear right now? He's just a kid back then, Maybe that's the reason he still never marry since he'll remember something bad especially that he has a living proof around and kicking for 18 years and sadly its me. 

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"Lu-chan, can we talk.?" Mother er grandma said while gently knocking in my room making me open the door and let her inside. I didn't notice that it's already midnight and I still don't grab anything except for breakfast no wonder my stomach is grumbling.

"Are mad to any of us?" She asked while I just shake my head since I'm not really mad infact I'm grateful since they still raise me well. 

"Is big er dad, angry no loathe me everytime he saw me?" I asked curiously as I watch her carefully that is why I notice how she slightly caught off guard and smile again. 

"... Not that much, since we always said back then that it's not your or his fault that you exist in this world." She replied honestly making me nod since she has a point.

"Thank you, grandma. .."  I stated making her smile happily and hug me.

"What will I call you all now?" I asked honestly since I really don't have any idea what to call them now.

"Call us anything you want dear,. " She replied with a smile.

" Can I not go proceed to my out of coming age next month and start traveling already?" I asked curiously since I don't want this family to be drag in mud because pf me.

"Are you afraid of what other people will think of you?" She asked gently making me shake my head.

"Not in the least, but I don't want this family to be criticize because of me, I'm already thankful that you still raise me despite having a blood of someone who ruin your child's innocent." I replied honestly making her stun for a second and chuckle makes me frown a little.

"Just like you, me and Ethan, wasn't afraid to anyone who said anything to us as long as they don't harm us physically.." She replied making me sighed. 

" Dad, can never get a partner by then and I want him to have a family of his own." I stated making her chuckle more.

" Silly, aren't you his family... "She stated making me shake my head in disapproval.

"I want him to overcome his trauma, and start a new life without me in the picture since I never plan to see him again after I leave this place to let him breath but i still write a letter to you grandma." I honestly replied making her quiet and sighed defeatedly.