Chapter 829 829: In our generation [2/2]
"Sigh. I know that Dearest. You blackmailed a Revenant for my sisters and I after all. I-It's because I slowly began to understand the power of my Father after I ascended to a Specter. Yet, even with all that power the past civilizations all still died.
"It humbled me. How many years of our lives will we devote to hardship? All for a goal we are not even sure is possible? Wouldn't it be simply better for us to take it slow and just live in the moment? We can take another weeklong honeymoon, right Dearest?"
It wasn't like I couldn't understand what Lilly was saying. As my powers grew the enemies I had to fight would only grow. Right now, there wasn't anything that could defeat us. If we kept to the single digit floors we could live like kings.
We had riches, love and status. We already won in life. With everything we had we could just live out our days in peace. The time when we had to struggle just to survive had already passed. As I was now, I could live like a king and never have to worry.
'This must be why despite there being strong Reapers they all end up just quitting. Lilly must be feeling the same at the realization of the impossibility of our task.'
After all baring that fact that we would all die when the hell broke open, we were doing pretty okay. There was no need to intentionally suffer, especially if the outcome if just for us to die. Hellsgate remained open to this day. it meant nothing the past Reapers did made any bit of a difference.
Her words made me remembered the words of people I met before.
"Why? Why not just forget all this and live happily in ignorance? Would you willing squander your remaining life all for uncertainty? What you wish to do no one has succeeded in time memorial, yet you wish to continue?"
"This is one of the truths, most do not know. The legions of Specters did not hide in cowardice, they simply lost interest in enduring such hardship. They lost their "why". The ones who can continue to fight even after they lost everything are the ones who eventually become Revenants."
"Think about everyone who tried to stop you from joining the seeker war. Their actions are the world telling you that your path will lead to the end of the world. Yet do you still will to continue despite knowing that truth?"
At her increase in power, she understood the strength of a Revenant. And at that realization came that even if there were a thousand of her, it didn't matter. They would all still die pointlessly fighting this impossible war. Our group who remembered our past lives had it worse than normal Reapers.
Giving up was the easiest thing in the world. And if you consider our situation, who could blame us? If you didn't know when the end would come, why bother waste your life slaving for such a future? Especially when everyone else that did died all the same.
But whenever I remember the back of the seven men in my dreams, I paused. They fought and fought until their respective worlds ended. They all seemed bitter, lifeless and spent. I'm pretty sure they were plenty of times they failed. Times they regretted their decisions.
Yet they all pressed on. Unlike the Sirens who each had one life. I saw seven of them. Having seen the mountains of the dead I knew firsthand the end result of Hellsgate breaking open was. Which was why I couldn't think like Lilly and the rest.
"Very well. The worlds in the past did not end because Hell broke open. They ended because he who slumbers awoke and destroyed it."
While I told the girls about everything else, I have yet to tell them that I personally met our {Fates}. Exa and Vela has yet to say anything so I kept quiet as well. If I didn't see those dreams I probably would agree with Lilly. To just live in the now and ignore the future.
But I did see the end. And now that I knew what was coming I couldn't turn away from it. Hellsgate would break open, humanity would fall, my girls would die, and the world would end. Nothing those men did mattered. it was a chilling tale of seven lifetimes worth of despair and regret.
It would have been wonderful If I could just give up. But that wouldn't be me. I turned to Lilly and gently caressed her cheeks.
"I know that you are scared, Dearest. But if we do not close Hellsgate we will all die. We can forget it but we would simply be living on borrowed time. And when Hellsgate breaks open I would regret not preparing the moment I see you and the girls get hurt.
"I am no strong enough to ignore this fact. I cannot just wait for someone to kill you. Not when I have the power to change it. I will never accept that dying horribly is the end of our road. That such a pitiful death is our fate. So, I will fight it. I will fight it with everything I have," I whispered.
"Limitless, {Soul Breaker} were called a different name in our time. Would you like to know what its old name was?"
"They were called {Fate Breaker}. To put it simply, the reason every soul in your body turns into power is not because of the ability it is the by product. Its main purpose is to summon the corrective force of destiny to a duel."
"This is why you are allowed to affect reality and command powers you normally could not. It is because you are literally challenging {fate}."
Lilly gripped my hand tighter as tears began to fall from her eyes.
"I am so terrified Dearest. Before I wanted to grow strong because I had nothing else. But now that I have you, the thought that I would lose you one day, scares me. What use is gaining the power of a Revenant if I still cannot protect those I cherish?"
"If one Revenant is enough then we will just make eight. If eight is not enough then we will raise a hundred. This is why we cannot stop Lilly. We can enjoy our time now, but I intend to end this war in our generation. I want our child to not have to worry about this," I replied.
The moment I said our child, Lilly broke down and hugged me. The American I loved the most began wailing as she cried out. Explore more at My Virtual Library Empire
"Can't we just forget about this? I can't remember her Dearest. My mother. The woman who bore me, I can't remember her. No matter how I try! There are huge chunks of my life that I can no longer remember! Friends I see in pictures but have no memory off!
"What if I forget you too one day? All our memories! Gone! Forever! I am so happy now but soon I might forget! I can't, I just can't. I am so so scared Dearest! If you fall, I wouldn't be able to remember my love for you. It's far too cruel! I didn't want this!"
I see. As the Sirens and I were always together all this time, I hadn't been able to talk to Lilly about the cost of becoming a Specter. Unlike the rest of us, she had to navigate this new frontier alone.
Even when she first showed me her powers, she acted even more arrogant than usual. But when I asked her, she also flinched and trembled like a child terrified of thunder. I hadn't been able to devote time to her as we had battle after battle since.
Lilly felt the feeling of losing parts of yourself and grew terrified. Rather than feel it again she wished to stay in our comfort zone and enjoy our lives in bliss. Even someone as strong as the untamed despite knowing beforehand broke down like this.
I said nothing and embraced her. During times like this it was best to just my woman have a good cry. Saying I understand was a lie. Anything I say to cheer her up would be nothing but platitudes. It was scary. It was cruel. But that was the cost she chose.
That was the cost I forced her to pay.
It was good that she let out her emotions out now. We would be heading to Kismayo soon. There even harder battles awaited us. And as heartbreaking it was to see her like this, I couldn't tell her what she wanted.
Because to win our future battles I would also need to pay this cost. And like a poison I willingly drank, I knew it would get much much worse before it got any better.
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