You said you hated men, why are your eyes now full of love?

Something was wrong. Deeply wrong!

Ji Mu took a short, convulsive breath. The shock of what he had just experienced had left his mind in turmoil.

The girl who usually had a pure and innocent image had actually... forcibly kissed him?!

What the hell was going on? Had she lost her mind?

His gaze fell on the girl lying on the ground, and Ji Mu's tightly furrowed brows could crush a fly.

We are the closest of friends, how could you, how could you... I can't understand, I just can't!

This was plainly unethical!

"Silly goose, you'd better have a good  reason for doing this."

"A reason?"

Ruan Qingqing was still smiling, not nervous at all.

"I already told you~ I just wanted to wipe something off your face."

Her red, delicate tongue gently brushed against her lips.

That sensation, impossible to describe, wrapped around every nerve like thin, silken threads. Her heart gave out for a moment, her limbs slack and weightless.

His lips were so soft. And so sweet.

Sweeter than any candy she had ever tasted.

She had never imagined that one day she would take the initiative to kiss a boy, nor had she expected that the experience would be so wonderful.

It was just a brief contact, yet it sent ripples through her body, arousing her deepest desires and leaving her intoxicated by the lingering aftertaste.

Ruan Qingqing bit her lip slightly in frustration.

Hey, you've gotten so close to Ji Mu, but there's still no progress. This kind of pain, being so close to him and still not being able to have him, must be unbearable, right? The longer you wait, the farther away he'll slip.

The thought settled in her mind.

The negative emotions that rose in her chest were a hundred times stronger than before, even causing her body to tremble slightly.

Her smile deepened.

Don't be afraid~. Don’t be afraid~.

He won't be able to escape. Let me teach you… how to enjoy this delicacy.

Ruan Qingqing's eyelids lowered slightly, regulating her turbulent emotions. When she raised her eyes again, they had turned into a pitiful expression, as if she had suffered a great grief.

"Ji Mu, why did you push me away? I only want to help you."

"Help me?"

You call this helping?

Ji Mu wiped his mouth with his hand, completely disbelieving her nonsense.

"Helping me by touching my mouth? Can't I wipe it myself? Please, your lies—"

"It hurts."

Before he could finish his sentence, he saw the girl sulking and sobbing, "It hurts so much, Ji Mu."

Her eyes welled up with tears, and her shoulders slumped slightly, looking extremely helpless.

Ji Mu's expression remained indifferent.

He figured she was acting again. But when his gaze fell on the bloodstains on her calf, the words he meant to say got stuck in his throat.

"Woo... it hurts..."

Ruan Qingqing's face was pale. She leaned on one elbow and tried to stand up, but she didn't have the strength. Her knees bent beneath her, and she slumped back into a half-kneel.

There was a scratch on her calf, surrounded by bruises.

Perhaps because her skin was so delicate, the wound looked especially prominent, and the blood that oozed out was even more vivid, evoking a feeling of pity.

"Ji Mu..."

A thin layer of sweat appeared on her forehead. She looked up at him as if grasping at the last straw, her voice weak and frail.

"It hurts..."

Ji Mu's heart tightened.

Her painful expression didn't seem fake.

Even though she had acted out of line earlier, she was, after all, his carefully protected mission target.

Seeing her injured was like watching a $25 million painting get slashed.

Feeling distressed, he rushed over to investigate the cause, "How did you get hurt like that?"

Ruan Qingqing's expression was downcast, tears glistening in her eyes, and she looked like a little fox, abandoned and trembling.

"When you pushed me away, I accidentally scratched the leg of the table."

"...I see."

So the culprit is actually me?

Ji Mu's hands floated awkwardly in the air.

He couldn't say that he instinctively pushed her away because she suddenly kissed him.

After all, she was in so much pain, and it was indeed his overreaction.

...Huh? Why do I feel a little guilty?

Ji Mu's expression froze.

For some reason, he had the strange feeling of being manipulated.

"Ji Mu, it hurts..."

The girl's pitiful voice interrupted his thoughts.

Coming back to reality, he shook off those strange thoughts and crouched down beside her to check her injury.

"Do you have a first aid kit at home?"

Ruan Qingqing bit her lip and replied, "I have one in my room."

After speaking, she probably realized that she couldn't bother him anymore. She tried to go back to her room on her own, but she accidentally pulled on her wound and failed.

Seeing her stubbornly endure the pain, refusing to ask for his help, was truly pitiful.

Unable to watch any longer, Ji Mu simply took her in his arms.

Ruan Qingqing seemed startled, but she didn't struggle, just leaned against his chest without saying a word.

Like a small animal that had been injured and then taken in by a kind person, she was filled with a strong sense of dependence.

"If you couldn't walk, you should've just told me. Stop torturing yourself."

Hearing his voice from above, Ruan Qingqing buried her face in his chest and asked softly.

"Ji Mu, am I heavy?"

She wasn't exactly light.

At 165cm tall, she weighed a full 50kg.

Since most of her weight was concentrated in her thighs, hips, and chest, she appeared slim on the surface, but carrying her was actually a bit of a strain.

Feeling the soft flesh through the cloth, Ji Mu casually replied, "It's fine."

In his previous life, he had worked part-time moving goods that were dozens of times heavier; this weight was nothing.

He entered the room, put her on the bed, and looked around, "Where's the first aid kit?"

Ruan Qingqing pointed to the bottom drawer of the desk.

"Over there..."

Ji Mu took the kit and opened it, crouching down in front of her.

He wiped away the blood on her calf and applied iodine to the wound with a cotton swab.

When he noticed out of the corner of his eye that the girl was biting her lip and not saying anything, not even crying out in pain, he was a little surprised. "Doesn't it hurt?"

Ruan Qingqing shook her head.

She continued to stare silently.

His amber peach blossom eyes were focused and serious. Even though he was just treating a simple wound, his actions were as meticulous as if he was handling a rare treasure without showing the slightest hint of negligence.

She was somewhat dazed.

It wasn't that she felt touched, exactly. It was just unfamiliar.

In her previous life, after her complete transformation, she had been alone.

Loneliness was the norm for her. When bullied, she would retaliate tooth for tooth, eye for eye, using even more ruthless and cruel methods to strike back.

Living in a dark world, she never hoped for redemption, nor did she believe that anyone could truly save her.

But... "Silly Goose".

The boy's actions were gentle, his voice soft.

He didn't look up as he carefully disinfected the wound.

From above, she could only see the tiny glimmer of concern in his eyes.

"If it hurts, you must tell me."

Ruan Qingqing didn't react.

Unconsciously, her hand clenched the sheet.

Something stirred behind her eyes, a ripple in the darkness, as if something had rudely entered, opening a small crack in her fortified heart.

Ji Mu, you're just like you were in your previous life.

So... annoying.

While her emotions spun, Ji Mu had just finished treating the wound.

"I've disinfected your leg. Don't let it get wet until it heals."

He was about to tidy up the scattered medical supplies and give some more instructions when a pair of cool, soft hands suddenly touched his cheek.

The girl's thick, curled eyelashes fluttered before his eyes, and her pale, beautiful eyes were like the autumn waters of West Lake.

She leaned down and slowly moved closer, placing a light kiss on his lips.

The soft, cotton candy touch was fleeting.

Compared to the aggressive kiss from earlier, the girl now seemed to have shed her madness and become a devout believer.

Ji Mu's body stiffened.

Even he hadn't expected that she would have the courage to kiss him again.

"Ji Mu, thank you~"

After a moment of silence in the room, the girl explained her actions.

"Thank you for taking care of me all this time. I really want to repay you, but I don't have anything unique or something that others don't have to offer."

"After thinking about it, the only way I can repay you is with this first kiss."

In both her past and present lives, she had never kissed anyone.

This was something that no one else had ever experienced.

So...

The moonlight filtering through the gap in the curtains fell into her beautiful eyes, like cornflowers blooming in the dark, her voice filled with a gentle allure.

"My kiss, completely... belongs to you alone."

In the face of shifting fate, this wandering soul has endured much suffering.

She stood alone amid broken walls and rubble, her eyes opening to a long stretch of desolate wasteland.

She was destined to be forever imprisoned in this desolate graveyard, yet she harbored the delusional hope that some distant deity would cast a glance in her direction.

Remembering the fleeting years of the past, her tumultuous fate had never ceased. A life of wandering had been her penance, the broken and incomplete melody carved into her bones.

And finally, from within the countless ashes, she caught a glimpse... of a place where she could truly belong.

Never in her life had she felt as happy as she did today.

May the Lord... have mercy.

(Affection for men: -15)

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